I knew, I always knew.
When I saw you everyday, some part of me knew.
It was my appearance that caused the comments
That were meant to be hurtful lies
Ones I never knew would become the truth.

But they were
Because I had always known.
And in some way so did they.

And I was scared.
I had never wanted to become this way.
I never knew that love could feel so good,
so right (since it was never forced
like I had tried so long ago to deny)
You taught me that, yet you will never know
Exactly how I feel about you.

But I knew how I felt
Even then, never said.

We are classmates, at best.
A friendly hello in the hallway
A little joke, a little laugh
Yet these meetings are bittersweet
because I know I may never be with you.

And I still know I will not
And yet I still have foolish hope

And you are young and foolish too.
You say things I know you do not mean.
You are harsh when you mean to be helpful.
But I do understand that
And it has not stopped how I feel.

Because I knew, all along
Just how I felt about you

A crush at best it was
Born from lust of you
but evolved into something different
Not lust nor love
but something in between.

Something you will never feel.
And that I always knew

And I am the biggest fool of them all
I see things that are wishes, dreams
Because when I look at you from afar
Sometimes I see you look back.

And I know, I know
Yet the fluttering of hope
Does not.

And it's foolish, pitiful
But I am young and foolish
So I enjoy these feelings while I can
Before reality rips my dream apart.

Because all along, I knew
that this could never be anything
but a pleasant dream.